With an abrupt ending to such a long ordeal, I know that it will be difficult for everyone to obtain their own form of closure, whatever that may entail. We certainly miss him already, and wouldn't want anyone to have to quit Andrew cold-turkey. To that end, I'll keep posting as long as people keep reading. For a while, it will be 100% Andrew....I still have thousands of pictures, hundreds of videos, and plenty of stories that haven't made it to the blog. That will blend into updates about D and me. After that, who knows?
Today we tried to relax and unwind as much as possible. We ran a couple of errands, cleaned the house a bit, and worked on some keepsakes (like scanning the prints above). We talked a lot about Andrew, about the future, and about our feelings. While there were intermittent bouts of tears (I'm sure the other customers at Islands thought we were crazy), we are also relieved. We no longer have to worry about him...about bad blood gases, CT scans, and upset "episodes." It's strange not to call and check on his progress every few hours, and unfathomable to go without a hospital visit. I have been at Children's Hospital every day for the last 157 days....the freedom to stay home is sad and refreshing at the same time.
Today we tried to relax and unwind as much as possible. We ran a couple of errands, cleaned the house a bit, and worked on some keepsakes (like scanning the prints above). We talked a lot about Andrew, about the future, and about our feelings. While there were intermittent bouts of tears (I'm sure the other customers at Islands thought we were crazy), we are also relieved. We no longer have to worry about him...about bad blood gases, CT scans, and upset "episodes." It's strange not to call and check on his progress every few hours, and unfathomable to go without a hospital visit. I have been at Children's Hospital every day for the last 157 days....the freedom to stay home is sad and refreshing at the same time.
We'll keep reading as long as you keep posting.
ReplyDeleteJamie and Danielle,
ReplyDeleteI can't tell you how many times I read and reread your blog the past few days and I am so happy to hear that you will continue posting. Through the past 5 months I have not only fallen in love with your little guy, but also with you two. You are both amazing, amazing people. Your strength and selfless love for your child (and each other) is inspiring. I know that Andrew is now your little angel (I am sure your Yia Yia already has her arms wrapped around him) :) I hope you both can take comfort in knowing how many lives he has impacted. I know that I will never forget him.
I can't wait to see what the future holds for you both and once again, thank you for allowing us to be a part of that journey. I am honored to have known Andrew.
Take care,
Sarah
I feel this blog pays homage to Drew, a perfect baby, who was terribly ill. Please honor this beautiful boy a little longer.
ReplyDeleteI would be grateful.
Marion
Jamie and Danielle,
ReplyDeleteYou both don't know me, but I know you and baby Drew. I can't even imagine to begin to comprehend what you are going through and what is going through both your minds right now.
As I sit here and cry pondering how strong of people and parents you are. You are my hero's. My child was in the NICU at birth for 3 months. I comend you for your bravery and loyalty to your son. I pray that peace be with you and that every moment you have be cherished for all of eternity.
You three are in my thoughts, prayers, and heart.
Sincerly,
A Friend
What beautiful hands and feet this little guy has. Jaime and D, thank you both for sharing the life of your beautiful baby boy. He will always be remembered!! God Bless
ReplyDeleteDear Jaime and Danielle,
ReplyDeleteAs I opened up your post-as I do every day...I realized that there will be no more posts...and there was such a sense of sadness.... Andrew was so important to so many of us...and not to be able to be 'connected' to him and to the both of you-seemed so sad. It made his leaving that much more tough. But, then when I saw his little hand prints and foot prints...and your promise to keep his memory alive awhile longer...and it seemed so befitting. His life was so much more than this blog...it was the connections, relationships and love that was shared. Thank you for allowing that memory to continue-and to allow us to share in his family's life for a while longer. We will look forward to hearing how Drew's parents are doing and how he continues to live on in their lives in his memory. Thank you again for opening up your heart and lives to share Andrew with all of us. We are all thinking of you and will look forward to hearing how you are doing. You both are truly an amazing couple and an example to us all on how to love and honor our children. We will hold you in prayer this Thanksgiving...Love, Cathy